Now, never mind that but what do you think about the Titanic?
Tell me that.
What can I think about it? For the love of God!
January 2016
Leo lost his life because of that bitch, Kate.
If only she made a room for him...
...if only she took him in the dinghy...
...then that handsome guy wouldn't die.
Exactly.
She couldn't move her ass a little.
Fat ass!
He died; I swear!
It's a cheap movie anyway.
Yes.
"Against the wall" is also a cheap movie.
Shush!
Look!
Don't you dare!
It's impossible.
I don't want to hear that again!
-Your mouth is bleeding. -What?
Your mouth is bleeding again.
Move your leg.
Are you okay?
Listen, you must have a blood test.
-This is the second time. -No need for that.
It's okay. I am fine. It was my gum bleeding.
What do you mean it is okay?
Why would your gum bleed all of a sudden?
We'll go.
Maybe I did it with the toothbrush or something.
It's possible.
It's okay, see?
-You still have some. -Where? Show me.
-Look, it's still bleeding. -Where?
Attention!
Gum bleeding can be a sign of leukaemia.
Do you have the results?
Sorry!
What happened? Do you have the results?
Yeah.
I came to the hospital to get the results and I saw my doctor.
Hospital?
Deniz, why didn't you tell me?
Calm down.
Shall we meet at home?
Deniz!
-What happened? -It's okay.
Why don't you sit down now?
Tell me, I can take it. What is it?
Erm, first of all, there is nothing to be afraid of.
Your body does that in cases like this.
He said it was normal. Your nose can bleed too.
In what cases?
I am going to tell you now.
When doctor was suspicious about...
-About what? -I am telling you; you know.
He checked my beta HCG levels.
Is that something bad?
Barýþ, can I finish my word? Are you listening to me?
I am listening.
And my period was late this month, so I got suspicious.
But I didn't want to build up your hopes...
...because I know how much you want it.
Leukaemia!
Barýþ, do you want me to have Leukaemia!
Why don't you listen to me!
I am really sorry. I am listening, yes.
I will have another blood test next week...
-Tell me what's wrong with you! -I am pregnant!
Idiot!
You are listening to me at all!
Are you pregnant?
Yes, I am. I am 5 weeks pregnant.
We are pregnant? You and I?
Are you pregnant?
You were telling me to stop taking the birth control pills, so I did.
Are we going to have a baby?
Yes.
I mean if everything goes well, then yes.
It is not only because I want to have a baby, right?
No! No, no, no!
I want to have one as well. I am ready for it.
Come on, let's cry enough for 9 months...
...then let's stop crying, okay?
I am going to be a father!
Slow down, slow down, slow down! Slow down!
Sorry.
Joe!
Joe, we are going to have a baby!
We are going to have a baby! Did you hear me?
I am going to be a father! Did you hear me!
I am going to be a father!
Stop hitting on that thing, ma'am, I am going to be a father!
Congratulations. All you need was a child.
-What did she say? -Fuck it! Never mind!
Go inside. I don't want you to catch cold.
I love you so much.
Deniz?
Deno, what are you doing? Are you craving?
Can you stir this please?
-What? -Stir it please.
Is it done?
Wow!
Good God!
It was a kind of tradition between us.
Whenever I went to see her with some good news...
...in the middle of the...
...we used to wake up in the middle of the night, just two of us...
...though, while my father and brother were asleep.
Then she would bake the same cake.
It was the worst cake in the world.
But I used to love it so much.
We used to have it together.
Like we were celebrating something.
Wish me luck, mommy.
I am going to be a mother.
Happy parents, happy children
He looks so beautiful on here.
February
Look how beautiful he is.
The apple of my eye.
Deniz, look at this.
What are you doing?
Why?
It relaxes me.
-Deno. -Huh?
It's time to tell our families, right?
First, let's hear his heartbeat, then we can go to Bursa.
Why don't we tell your family first?
My family?
You mean my brother and my sister in law?
Deniz, we are going to tell your father, right?
Barýþ, I am pregnant, you know.
I advise you not to pick a fight with me right now.
Can I ask you one last thing?
Huh?
Did my mom really tell you that?
You know, she told you that she's been praying every day...
...hoping that we would never have a child?
Did she really say that?
No, of course not.
I was so angry with you that day.
I said that stupid thing because I wanted to hurt you that day.
I am sorry.
Actually, she said just the opposite.
She said, come on, we want to have a grandchild.
I swear to God!
Okay.
Okay, I believe you.
My mom wouldn't say something like that anyway.
Yeah.
March
Mom, meatballs are great! Thank you so much.
Stuffed peppers taste delicious too.
Enjoy.
Love, you don't eat that much.
Are you on diet?
No, I am just watching my food.
So, how are you, guys?
Is everything okay?
Everything is okay, dad. It is okay!
It's even better!
How are you? Are you okay?
We are okay.
You know, we are at home most of the time.
Bursa is getting cold.
It's raining all the time.
True.
Love?
Have some pastrami. It's from Afyon.
It's delicious.
No, I shouldn't have...
...raw meat.
I am sorry.
Yes.
Mom, dad.
We are going to have a baby.
What are you talking about? Really?
-Yes. -Yes.
I am 8 weeks pregnant.
Mr Father!
Congratulations, son.
Thanks, dad.
Deniz, congratulations, my beautiful girl.
Thanks, thank you so much.
Congratulations, son.
Thank you, mom.
May God let him grow up with both of his parents, son.
Amen.
I hope you are going to have a healthy baby.
Amen.
I hope God will give him a long life.
Thank you.
Is that for Deniz?
I prepare it for her every evening.
I can do it, son. Why don't you sit down?
-I don't want you to get tired. -It's not tiring, mom.
I am enjoying it.
Have you told to Deniz's father as well?
No.
We wanted to tell you first.
How about your work, Barýþ?
Deniz is working as well.
Shall we start looking for a house in Ýstanbul?
You know I've always wanted to move there.
Mom, let's not talk about that tonight.
Okay?
Please.
Are you happy, son?
We are happy, mother.
We are very happy.
And you know what makes me so happy?
I know Deniz and you had a conversation 2 years ago...
...when we came to visit you.
She told me about it the other day.
About us having a child.
Actually, it was about what you were thinking...
-...about us having a child. -Barýþ, son.
She said you told her you were praying for us to have a baby.
Deniz was about to cry when she told me.
You also told her that she would be a great mother.
The speech you gave her that night encouraged Deniz big time.
It made me so happy, mom.
I know how much you love me but that conversation you had with...
...Deniz, the fact that you care about her as much as...
...you care about me, because you know mom, at such times...
...you want to have your mother's support.
Without worrying...
...without worrying about the future...
...just by sharing your happiness...
That's why, I thank you so much.
Thank God, you are here, mother.
You too, son.
Thank God, you are here too.
I think you'll have a baby boy.
Why?
They say, if it is a girl, then she would steal her mother's beauty.
What if it is a boy?
Then they say, it makes the mother look more beautiful.
Thank you.
I am sure your brother is so happy about it.
They don't know it yet.
So, I guess you haven't told your father as well.
What's going to change if I tell him.
No baby in the world can solve the problem we have between us.
I don't want it to be solved anyway.
It's not that easy.
I know what's going to happen if I tell him.
He will lecture me.
He'll give me a lot of advices.
As if he is the best father in the world.
I didn't know it would be so difficult.
I am a little tense.
I can't figure out why everyone is so interested in our private life.
It was the same thing with the wedding.
If it was up to me, I would just go to the registrar office...
...and signed the papers. Done and dusted.
That's what I wanted too but it didn't happen.
She invited the entire Bursa.
I will tell my brother and he will say I am going to be an uncle.
If I tell my father, he'll say I will be a granddad.
Everyone makes everything their own problem.
Don't get me wrong, please.
I love you so much but I find it really boring.
I don't want to listen people's advices about being parents.
I don't want it.
I don't want people pity me as well.
I just want to get on with my life.
What will you do if your child tells you the same thing...
...in the future?
I will slap him, what else can I do?
Come on, pretend that I am your father.
What?
Tell me you are pregnant.
Think of it as a rehearsal, maybe it will make you feel better.
You are so cute for that role. It's not even possible.
Come on, action!
Okay.
You asked for this.
Actually, you don't even deserve to hear this...
...but I thought about it a lot...
...and I realized that I owe you a thank you.
The relationship you had with my mother taught me a lot.
For instance, it taught me the fact that I have to be honest...
...with my child, if I have one in the future.
Children who grow up in a loveless homes cannot trust anyone easily.
Showing your love to children is not enough.
And the relationship between his parents will affect...
...all the relationships he will have throughout his life.
And if I fuck it up, then he will fuck it up as well...
...because all the traumas he will suffer.
I learned all that from you.
We are going to have a baby and it scares me a lot...
...but I cannot show that to anyone.
But I still wonder how it is going to be.
As your daughter, the only thing I want to hear from you...
...is the fact that everything is going to be great...
...but you are such an asshole, so...
...even when you say that, I will not know if you are lying or not.
I will be thinking about that. So that's why...
...I really need to hear that from you.
I am sorry.
I do apologize.
Everything makes me cry lately.
Barýþ told me about some stuff. It must be about that.
I am really sorry. I got carried away.
Deniz...
...you can trust me, my love.
Everything is going to be great.
Thank you, father.
April
Are we going to go door to door and tell everyone that...
...we are going to have a child?
Is that going to be our life from now on?
Be patient. This is the last one.
What?
Literally...
God!
Look at my sister!
Are you really pregnant?
Barýþ!
My beautiful sister! Congratulations!
-Thanks, thanks. -Thank you.
It just happened.
-I hope you'll have a healthy baby. -Amen, amen.
Brother, come over here!
-My dear. -Congratulations.
May god let him grow up with both of his parents, brother.
Thank you.
Am I going to be an uncle now?
I am going to be an uncle.
Hey, our child is sleeping. Stop shouting.
Okay but I am going to be an uncle.
I know you are going to be an uncle but please keep your mouth shut...
-...you'll wake her up. -I am so happy for you.
I am going to go crazy!
-I am going to go crazy. -Me too!
I am going to be an uncle, girl!
So, it makes me his aunt, right? I will be his aunt.
Yes, yes.
Wow, brother, so, you are going to be a father at last.
You said 10 weeks, right?
10.
10. You might have some spots on your skin.
You might feel bloated, but it's normal.
I don't know if you are ready for this but you can kiss goodbye...
...your old comfortable life.
You may also get pregnancy brain; you might get a little confused.
Don't let that scare you.
Deniz may go dotty a little, prepare yourself for that.
Actually, no, we know what Deniz is like.
It can't get worse, can it?
If you feel like you have gas, then you have to fart immediately.
Did you hear me? It's very important for the baby.
It's written in all the books.
If you want to rent another house to make music, then I can join you.
We can be more comfortable. We can catch our breaths.
And forget about waking up late.
Actually, forget about sleeping for a while.
Say yes to whatever she tells you. Do not take any initiatives.
You will have to live for 2 from now on.
You did quit smoking, right?
Fucking hell!
What?
My love, I am so sorry.
I had an email. I was thinking about work.
I think I lost it.
That thing happened to me, I guess. What was it?
What did you tell me a minute ago?
What brain?
-Pregnancy. -Pregnancy brain.
By the way, forget about sex for a while.
No, no, forget it completely.
Brother, what are talking about?
Stop talking about that stuff.
I don't want to talk about that with my wife's brother.
What's wrong, man! How did you make that child?
-Deniz. -Huh.
-How about our father? -Okay, brother!
Call him and tell him to come over here so we can tell him...
...all together, okay?
Otherwise, you are going to nag me all day.
I don't have time for that.
That's what I was going to tell you.
He is at Prague right now. He'll stay there for a month.
I was going to ask you if it would be okay...
...if we tell him when he gets back?
Okay, we'll do that.
Barýþ, shall we make a move? It's getting late.
Okay, let's finish our tea, then, we'll leave.
Barýþ, do you want to have your tea over here or...
May
Dinner is ready, what time you'll be home?
The person you are calling cannot take your call at the moment.
Please try again later.
Where have you been?
Deniz!
It's okay, love.
You'll be fine.
How many weeks are you?
A lot.
I talked with your brother.
He said you wanted to tell me.
I felt awful because I wasn't here for you.
-But you know, for business... -For business?
That was your favourite toy when you were little.
Remember?
We returned it because we didn't want you to fall off.
Really?
I thought he went grazing with his friends.
You are going to be such a beautiful and good mother.
He will be a very lucky boy.
I rehearsed this conversation in my head, you know.
To figure out how I would break the news to you.
Whenever I have some hopes for you...
...you manage to destroy it.
Stop it, Deniz.
Please, leave it in the past.
Are you telling me that?
You still come over here and lie to me as if I am still 5 years old.
I know you went to Prague to shag a girl but still...
...you are telling me it was for business.
You can be so shallow sometimes.
Deniz, you know what I think about from time to time?
I think you are exploiting the hatred you have against me.
As if you love to be angry with the world and...
...you are looking for a motivation to continue that.
And as if I am the only thing you have...
...you are holding onto the hatred you have against me.
That's why you don't want to see me.
That's why you can't leave anything in the past.
You need that sauciness you call freedom so much.
You can't give up.
I am not your problem, love.
You have a problem with yourself.
Maybe you are right...
...but you are wrong about something.
I don't hate you anymore.
I just don't like you.
The things you do, your lies, your character, the fact that you are...
...fucking girls as same age as your daughter...
...even the party you vote for.
I don't like anything you represent.
And I want to understand one thing, please tell me if I am being a...
...spoiled girl again, why do I have to see someone...
...I would never meet with under normal circumstances...
...just because he is my father?
It's getting late.
I guess Barýþ is still at work.
While your mom was pregnant with your brother...
...I was also late...
Barýþ is not like you.
Congratulations again.
To you both.
Deniz.
I am so sorry, love.
We had a crisis at work.
I was at the storage room of the hospital.
I didn't realize that I didn't have any phone reception.
Did your father come to see you?
I am so sorry.
I am really sorry.
Don't become like him.
Don't you dare become like him.
Never.
June
Deniz.
What are you doing?
Are you okay?
I think I am a little scared.
Really?
Me too.
You too?
Thank God!
Nice, it's really nice to hear that.
Is that why you started smoking again?
I can smell a fart from one kilometre away...
...do you think I can't smell the cigarette?
I feel like a hound dog at the moment.
Your moustache stinks all the time anyway.
When are you going to shave them?
You can't kiss the baby with a moustache.
Why is that?
You can grow them back again.
What kind of parents do you think we'll be?
I don't know.
Everyone is trying to be the best parents in the world...
...but it's such a fucking pressure, man.
It's like shit!
Maybe we should be bad parents? Huh?
What do you think?
We can do that but if we are going to be bad parents...
...then let's not be boring as well.
Like your brother?
Asshole.
Do you think if there was a license to have children...
...they would give us one?
I think it would be difficult to get one at first try...
...but I guess we would have it on the 3rd or 4th try.
-I think we could have it. -I think we could have it too.
-There are worse people than us. -True.
Some people throw their babies in the bin.
I know. Yes.
Never mind, let's just be good parents.
Let's do that.
We can do it if we don't lose each other.
Promise me.
Tell me you won't lose me.
I promise you.
I will never lose you.
I promise you.
I will never lose you.
Do you think we should start with the baby room?
Are you going to say goodbye to those?
For a while.
But when he turns 18, then the rental contract will expire...
...and I'll put the stuff back.
Maybe it would be better if we knew the sex of the baby.
What are you going to do with it?
I don't know.
Then we would know if we had to paint the walls in pink or blue.
Your honour, sir, at one sitting please.
-You are so sexist. -What!
What if the judge is a female?
-How do you know that? -Come on, you, idiot!
-How do you know that? -You can't hit me with that.
No, it's not possible.
I won't let you do that.
Try some. It's delicious.
-What are you eating? -Toasty with ketchup.
It's delicious.
I won't eat that. Don't be prejudiced.
July
What are we going to write then? Something romantic?
Whatever you feel like it.
What's your introduction?
Hello, little one, I am your mother.
Write your own thing!
I am your father.
We aren't going to read them to each other...
-...after finish writing, right? -No.
He can read them if he wants to.
Okay, come on! Stop distracting me!
August
I would cut one of my arms if you would crave for something normal.
We have all the tropical fruits in the house...
...but you don't crave for them. You just...
You are not eating the soil, right?
No.
Grass?
I'll eat it if you keep talking.
He will be a Libra, right?
What happens if he is a Virgo?
He would be a pain in the ass.
Irritating, suspicious, rule based, meticulous...
...he would deserve a good beating.
-Deniz. -Huh?
Come on, let's go.
It looks like it is not going to happen.
Just wait.
Isn't it so silly that we can name him whatever we want?
Why?
I mean, can we name him chimney-hood?
Would that be okay?
I don't know.
I guess it wouldn't be okay.
I guess it would be okay.
Chimney-hood, come on, love, we have to leave now!
Chimney-hood sounds like a boy's name.
Chimney-hood!
Wrought-iron?
Wrought-iron, stop it, love.
Sounds nice. It's okay.
-Barýþ. -Yeah?
Shall we name him Can if it is a boy?
-My brother's name? -Uh, huh.
I don't know.
They say it's not a good thing to name someone after a departed.
Who says that?
-I don't know. -Can.
I think Can is a beautiful name.
Really?
If it is a girl, we can name her Sýkýmýna.
Idiot!
Congratulations.
It's awesome!
September
Is it every 5 minutes?
3 times in a minute.
Fuck!
Hold on, hold on. Calm down.
Let me go to the toilet. Hold on.
Come on. Come on, come on.
Give me a minute.
Careful.
Fuck!
What happened?
What?
My waters broke.
What?
Grab the bag and the stroller.
-Grab some extra towels. -Okay, okay.
Bag.
Stroller is here.
Towel.
Let's grab those too.
Barýþ!
I am coming! I am coming!
Let's take that as well.
Okay, okay.
Are you okay?
Call the doctor!
Hello, doc!
No, she supposed to give birth in 3 days...
...but she is having contractions.
Okay, okay, doc!
Okay, we are on our way.
Okay, okay.
Come on! Come on!
Barýþ!
I am putting my shoes on, okay!
Come on. Come on.
Okay.
Come on, let's go. Lean on me.
What is it going to be now? A Virgo?
-To hell with the Virgo! -Move!
-What's this, man! -Come on!
Be careful.
Did I take the key? I did.
Fucking hell! What's this, man!
Okay. Okay, calm down.
Shall I call your brother? What do you think?
Barýþ! Drive! Drive the fucking car!
Okay!
Fuck, it is not opening.
-Open it! -I can't open it!
To hell with it!
Deniz, what are you doing?
Drive!
Fuck!
Come on, Barýþ!
-Faster! -Okay.
-Faster! -That's the fastest I can drive.
I am fine now. Okay.
Okay, okay, I am fine now. You can slow down.
Fuck you, Barýþ! Step on the fucking gas!
Step on it!
My love, come on, say something. I am recording it.
What do you want me to say? Stop recording it.
I want to record it.
We won't have time when they get here.
My love, we love you so much. Thank God, you are here.
Welcome. They are here.
They are here.
Come on then. Come on!
Come on, love.
You see, your parents are here.
You are still in your mother's tummy.
-Ambulance! -Calm down, calm down.
-Ambulance! -Calm down!
-Bring a wheelchair. -Slowly, slowly, slowly.
-Come on, love. -I am telling you to calm down.
-Good God! -Come on, come on.
-Come on. -Slowly, slowly.
Fuck you all!
What the hell you are doing here?
Breathe, breathe.
Shut your mouth!
Okay, okay.
Think about a happy place! Happy place!
Okay, hold on.
You are making me talk. Is this thing on?
She is 7 cm dilated.
What does it have to be so she can give birth?
10 cm.
Fuck!
It started. Establish a vascular access and put her on IV.
Don't be afraid, Deniz. It's going to be a piece of cake.
Yeah.
You can come with us. Come on.
I am feeling great. Are you okay?
Come on, let's give birth now. Okay?
You are hurting my hand!
Deniz! Fuck!
Deniz!
My love, you'll be here soon...hold on Barýþ, I don't want to miss it.
This angle is better.
My love, you'll be with us soon.
Yes, daddy, do you want to say something?
See you soon.
God!
Mommy is here.
Yes.
Turn that thing off!
Okay.
I don't want to miss the best part.
Don't forget to breathe, Deniz.
-Breathe! -It hurts so much.
-Okay, I am here for you. -Come on then.
Come on.
Breathe.
Hello, little one.
I am your mother.
Hello, little one.
I am your father.
I stole the introduction from your mother.
Give me your blessing.
I must admit, I am a little nervous because we'll have you soon.
And I am a little scared.
I started to feel weird already.
I started to be afraid of things that I was never afraid of.
What if something happens to you?
What if something happens to me? What if I ruin everything?
What if you don't love me?
By the way, you don't have to love me.
That's your right. You are a different person.
If you feel pressured about that in the future...
...and if that happens because of me...
...then remind me this letter and tell me to shut my mouth. Okay?
Because upsetting would be the last thing I want in the world.
I am here.
Okay, I am here?
-I can't do this. -No, you can.
You can do it. You are a strong woman. Come on.
Yes, you'll be with us in 2 months and I am so excited.
That's who I am so you better get used to that.
I have been dreaming about the day we are going to meet...
...we are going to play, we are going to have chat.
I can't promise you that I will be a cool father.
I mean, don't expect me to paraglide with you in the future.
Maybe your mom can do it with you. I don't know about that.
But I can promise you one thing.
I will always love you and your mother.
And whatever the circumstances are, I will never stop loving you.
I am looking at your father while I am writing this to you.
At first, he tried to cheat but then he got better at it.
I wonder what he is writing.
I am sure he'll cry in a minute.
I can't wait for the day that we are going to watch a movie...
...together and make fun of your dad because he is crying.
How can I describe your father to you?
I don't know.
It was August.
It was a hot and difficult day and I have been angry for a while.
I was angry with everyone and everything.
And then I met your father.
At first, we stole a melon together.
And then we had a long chat.
I didn't want that day to be over.
I felt like I knew him all my life.
I felt like everything would be okay if we hugged each other.
And then what happened?
And then I fell in love.
I fell in love with the most beautiful smiling man in the world.
Let me give you a little advice about your mother.
Forget about all the people you are going to meet...
...because that's what I did when I met her.
I had a lot of people in my life.
They entered my life and then they were gone.
People I knew or people I have never met.
There were a lot of people around me.
And then there was Deniz.
She is the most beautiful sea in the world.
Nobody can be like her. She rejects all etiquettes.
She can do whatever she wants. She is stubborn.
She is free.
You can see her soul on her face.
She is a woman who says I am here.
An endless sea, she is the waviest...
...but the most beautiful sea in the world.
Yes!
World is a weird place.
It's full of love but sometimes there is so much hate.
There is badness as well.
I will try my best to keep you away from all those.
But I know I can't stop everything and that scares me.
Actually, your mother and I, we both have the same wounds.
Sometimes, it is good.
Sometimes, it is bad.
Sometimes we heal our wounds.
Sometimes, we make them bleed even more like 2 stupid children.
My mom used to say that people who would conclude their argument...
...get along well.
I won't lie to you.
Although your father and I love each other so much...
...we haven't achieved that yet.
Maybe things will be different after you and we can achieve it.
I hope.
But even if we fail, in order not to let you go through...
...the same bullshit we had to go through when we were young...
...in order not to let you suffer from all that...
...in the future, I will do whatever is necessary.
I will do my best in order not to lose you.
I will do my best.
Welcome to our life.
I love you so much, your father.
Thank God, you are here, little one.
I love you so much, your mother.